hello?

the past two weeks have been dragging and draining, to say the least.
i feel like i'm just holding on by a string and at any moment i could snap. it just seems like life is becoming too overwhelming and stressful and i'm not sure how to handle it this time. usually i can handle it really well, but this time is different.
i have so much homework everyday, and the pressure is really on to find a new job and start working a heck of a lot more. i feel like i'm being worked really hard, but i'm not. emotionally, i'm not there at all, and i think that's the real problem. if i could gather my emotions and just talk about them and figure out what's going on inside my head, i'll be much better off. 

but i know what the real problem is.. i'm not being the best me i can be. i'm not being as Christlike as i can be, and it needs to change. 
there has been so much going on lately and it has been so overwhelming that i don't really know what to do or how to deal with it. but today i went to a lesson with the sister missionaries, and i prayed before i went to the lesson so i could have the spirit, but in the lesson i wasn't really there. i was zoning out and i just wasn't fully there. and after i left i realized that i need to make a big switch. my dad dying has put this black cloud over me, and that's okay. everyone deals with grief differently. there is no right or wrong way. but that doesn't give me an excuse not to be doing my daily scripture study and all those things. 
i was doing so well with everything and i was so sensitive to the spirit, and it was like a switch went off in me somewhere. but it just turned back on, and on it will stay.

i'm excited to read my scriptures and be sensitive to the spirit again. and i'm so very excited for general conference next month! i really cannot wait. it's the best ever. 


xoxo,

jacquelyn

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wise words.

life lately has been a bit overwhelming.
school is crazy. so much homework, i feel like that's all i do lately. but oh well #collegestatus

as you can tell, i kind of gave up on that 30 day challenge thing..oh well. i don't have time for that right now.
as overwhelming and tough this week has been, there are still so many things that i'm grateful for.
last weekend i was able to go to bradenton for the long weekend and it was so fun. Hammy came with me and got to meet my family and that went well. we all went on the boat and to the beach and just had a ton of fun. but it was hard to come back to orlando. i'm not sure why, it was just harder than usual.
i have such a love/hate relationship with bradenton right now. i love coming here to see my family and stuff, but i don't like being here. all the memories of my dad come back and it's just more real when i'm here. and i want to have those memories and remember, it just makes it harder. then leaving bradenton is hard too. i want to just stay with my family sometimes, but i have to go to school and have my own life and blah blah blah.
that probably didn't make any sense..it's just a weird thing and hard to explain.

i'm glad i have such great friends in orlando though. and ham, he has been so good to and for me. and he doesn't mind my awful mood swings haha, he just makes me laugh, then it's all good.


i've been finding some great quotes lately though, and they have really helped me have a better attitude.

 sorry there are so many..that's what happens when i don't write anything for a few weeks, or however long it's been.

they've just helped me a lot on those extra rough/stressful days.
wise words to help us get through.


xoxo,

jacquelyn

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